Ive probably ruined everything

I love them so much why does this have to happen to the people I love

why cant it happen to me

oh my god

i cant

I want to hug them so bad

I hide in this account as to not worry anyone, I hope I haven't made it obvious as to who I am

Though I dont think anyone even knows about this account so I think it matters

I love them so much

I cant just keep saying I love them and expect things to get better but I dont know what to do

Im so lost

Why does this happen

Am I really a good person?

I only want to help but I end up being annoying and getting in the way

Sometimes I wish to never speak again and the only reason Im still here is them. I will be here as long as they are. And I cant stand to see any of this happen to them. This used to happen to me but it eventually stopped. I need that to happen for them, I need them to understand that things do get better

I know you're out there and I hope you're not reading this but I love you I wish I could hug you

Thank you for saving me

I just hope I can do the same

If you go Im going down with you and I am serious about that

I would wait ten million years for you I would die for you I would do anything I would do anything just to make sure you will be ok

Without you I wouldn't be here

Thank you

Please stay strong for me okay