why .-.

no ._. if somehow you can read the message in it, you'd get why probably.. I would say something that'd give it away, but no. it's obvious at this point honestly.

You have to look closely :T If you really want me to tell you ._. then go ahead and ask ... :T

prepare for a depressing note that's actually true .. It basically just says 'I don't feel like myself' I really don't feel like myself.. honestly... If I say anymore, I'll probably end up crying myself to sleep or something. I hate my life. In all honestly. But, oh well. Life's harsh. :/

Honesty * I can't spell, and it took me like five minutes to notice that error. ...

ok, i'm stupid. nevermind that last thing.

But seriously.. I don't feel 'right' ... I don't feel like myself. I just today noticed how much that feeling is. I just want to curl up in a corner. Believe everything's Ok. That the threats around every corner might not be there. That every storm isn't bad. I wish I could believe. Everyone says if you believe enough, nothing's impossible. I believe their liars.. Every time I believe, I seem to just feel worse, because I'm more down to Earth in my thinking.. I go to reality too fast, when instead I should just be thinking I'm fine. Positivity I think to myself makes me realize how negative I am, and that makes me even more negative.. With all the things wrong, and things that could happen right now, in the near future, and sometime.. It's overwhelming... I feel like I'm always conflicting with myself. Regretting pratically every action... That I'm too sensitive.. They say it's OK to be yourself. In this case, it isn't... Liars.. If you decided to read all of that, I thank you.. N

Now, I'm gonna go to sleep.