I started this diary yesterday but never wrote in it sorry about that anyway in the morning when I woke up I got breakfast it’s was scrambled eggs, waffles, and sausages it was ok I don’t really like eating in the mornings but anyway I was on YouTube a lot after that I still am but now I’m eating ice cream and cake at the moment I’ll catch up later

Um I finished the ice cream and cake a while ago and I continued to watch youtube and I created a character on picrew and I’m drawing them now I just finished lunch even though I didn’t want to eat at all it was eating mac and cheese with meat and some lettuce with tomato’s and a type of clear ranch at the moment I’m drawing that character I made I think I’m naming them zero

I finished the drawing of zero and wanted to animate there eyes but then I deleted it I’m so bad and sad that I’m crying so I disided to post abort it and some one name @borkwoofbork said borkwoofbork17.05.2021 00:27LinkReportDeleteBlock ok borkwoofbork17.05.2021 00:27LinkReportDeleteBlock frantically searches for who the f uck asked So now I feel worse 🥰

So im way better then before ig I’m never good so I’m eating dinner and I’m scared for tomorrow because I have that whole presentation about the history project I have anxiety about talking to people that way prop because I’m a ambivert i talk a lot to small amounts of people but if I talk to a whole group or CLASS I’ll shake and sweat and stutter ugh I’ll just be a mess and I’m scared to practice/ to lazy so grrr

My iPad died so I’m re writing this anyway I’m going to bed soon so I just want to say I asked for fanart and I got some that just reminded me that I’m important ^^

I had an ok day at school, ig... I just found out I’m failing and mother won’t let me go to summer school in the summer

Mother apologized so I feel better now ^^

I’m mad I fell asleep for the whole day so I have nothing to write about (reminder: I may get my iPad taken away at the end of the week and never get it back because school)

-not interesting so nothing written-

-not interesting so nothing written- (reminder I’m giving the iPad back on 5/21/21 so no more diary entries)

-Onyx- Goes by they/he pronouns they like male terms and are uncomfortable with female ones

I haven’t wrote in here in a while heh sry I’m kinda sad atm iv been sick since like last week no the week before that. I haven’t been doing my work lately I need to bc next semester is coming up or something idk I’m not in the mood just kinda sad rn yk hhh I feel like a pig a fat, ugly, nasty, stinky, disappointing, disgusting, pig…I’m sad. I’m lonely. I’m a bad person that deserves nothing in life…I’m going to try and write in here more…sayonara.

I’m tired I’m going to the hospital in a bit bc I’m sick I’m to scared to tell mother that I’m feeling better…I’m cold and tired rn…I’m failing I was already failing but when I got sick and had to stay home last week Ik I’m failing even more hh I need to catch up with my work before I get in big trouble…I’m cold and tired rn…I’ll update this when I get back…I’ll probably pass out but I hope I don’t…sayonara.

Sry I forgot to do the writing I don’t think I’m going to do this today sry I’m loosing motivation.. kittenkat64 just reached 1000+ followers I’m so happy for her! It’s also her birthday so great bday present she’s turning 15 she’s so old compared to me I’m 12 she’s 15 like damn when I turn 15 she’ll probably be 17 like damn I’m a baby compared to my friends makes me sad bc they’re growing up faster then me…I’m cold and my head hurts..