Yea I just thought Yea Idk I need to stop pushing this away and trying to make it mean nothing. You guys mean a lot. You're ppl. Im so sorry for being an asshole the other day. I'm just disassociating again and it's hard to think, and accept things exist and ppl care. Especially here. Considering its all typed messages, it's hard to think you guys are real. It hurts kinda. I'm trying though. And thank you to all those supporting me and y'know Putting up with my bullshit lol. Just. Thanks.