I get it mom. I'll always be a failure in your eyes. I'm never gonna be good enough. I'm not gonna be the perfect daughter you expected me to be. Im sorry. The reason I watch these "stupid videos" instead of doing anything is partly because I'm a lazy peace of shit, but also so that I don't cry myself to sleep every night. I want to tell you these things but you probably wouldn't believe me. You'd probably just get mad at me.