ok pretend you're me

and i be family

i call you mental, im glad you want to die, and i doubt that you are my offspring

and i be friends and i call your disorder fake, im faking for attention, i don't have the guts, and cheesy things you would here in a wattpad fanfic of a suicidal person's friend

sometimes my dad slaps me or my sister locks me in a closet, or throws rocks at me. my mom thinks im going no where in life and she's right.

my sister poked me with on of those rods you use to put wood in a chimney thing. But it was still hot.

i still have the mark. she did this 6 times already.

she mostly does it while im sleeping.

speaking of hoe

i don't think i wanna talk about that nvm

eh. it's my fault. i take the blame for my friends mistakes. they tell me to stop but at this point, im ready for a punishment already.

it doesn't help when you start crying out of no where and your parents think you need to go to an insanement aslyum and they don't think SAD is a real thing but they still get the pills sometimes

why should I care about myself if there is not going to be a myself any more :/

im so alone, if i say "hello darkness my old friend" the darkness would say "no im not your friend"

my friends and family say i have a weird taste in music and i don't care until they take away my google mini

my family: *makes fun of my intrests* *makes fun of my friends* *makes fun of my mental state* *makes fun of my weight* also my family: why don't you ever talk to us?

i don't think water likes me at the moment so i'll just add that on a list-

here is all my emotions in one picture: https://preview.redd.it/cfjlkhyjjvp41.jpg?width=640&height=615&crop=smart&auto=webp&s=8c11071588b138cdc1b124f9cf2801546e3f9393

my dog and my little brother are the mojority reason why i don't want to kick the bucket

and the coolest thing about this pandemic is that it's the first biggest problem i didn't create

well, *my friends and my best friend (who i have a crush on) *i love to draw *i don't want my parents to figure out my password and look through my history while im dead *Reddit *FlipAnim *you *role playing *my cousin *my axolotl *my axolotl's babies (well, they aren't babies anymore) *my chill paralysis demon thats all ^-^

Pandemic is a world wide virus/sickness

those are my reasons

i have more reasons on why I SHOULDN'T be alive UvO

okay *my friends talk about me behind my back and say secrets to people i don't know *therapy isn't helping at all *my parents said they should have aborted so i would be doing them a favor *i already tried so ima try without interuptions *i won't be punished physically *i won't be named called *i won't have rocks thrown at me *I can watch a demon hit the quan in hell (if im correct, if you commit suicide, you go to hell) *i won't be a burden anymore *i won't make people mad *people would eventualy forget about me and move on *i won't have to go through the trauma of adult hood *my sister won't have to put uo with me *most of my friends are pretending to care about what i say so now they won't have to waste their time listening to me *oh wait, i don't have friends *my parents would have more money to spend now that I'm gone *i wasn't much of a useful person демоны в моей голове не заткнутся демоны в моей голове не заткнутся демоны в моей голове не заткнутся *i won't have sleep par

*i won't have sleep paralysis *i won't need to take my meds *i won't need to do anything anymore (those are my reasons)

демоны в моей голове не заткнутся демоны в моей голове не заткнутся демоны в моей голове не заткнутся HAHAHAHAHA

well. i don't let out my feelings that much. im great at lying so im gresat at keeping secrets so im great at faking my personality

this is my first time venting. this has been happening for 8 yeats now

*years

i have another reason why i should kms

People won't have to listen to my waste their time about venting!!!

i never vented and i wanted it to stay that way but here i am

i guess i have another reason why i want to live

lemon demon and bfb

хотя некоторые люди не позволяют мне делать то, что я хочу too, i guess

время разрезать запястье и больше не существует

well, i gotta go. not sure if im gonna be able to talk to you tomorrow. Night.

you can read up there and then tell me your thoughts.