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The meaning of YM=YUM
a formal good bye
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AtschoolIG 
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21.12.2021
3 comments
AtschoolIG[OP]
21.12.2021 02:09
Linkno one will read this. thats ok. i just need this off my chest.
im ****ed up, like hardcore, ****ed up. life is ****ed up. verything is ****ed up and it hurts, i cant live like this. i cant live with the person i love knowing that while we were dating, he was emotionally involved with some other asshole. i cant live with the quilt or pain of everything ive done. i cant live missing people who i'll never seen again, my sister, my grandpa, my best friend. i cant live knowing ive hurt everyone ive come into contact with, knowing that everyone is going to leave me or hurt me. i cant live being hurt like this. so, i wont live anymore. its too overwhelming to wake up every morning, its too overwhelming to go to sleep at night, or eat, or think or breathe or exist. its all too much and i cant take it. i dont want to do this anymore. im broken beyond repair. i dont want to try anymore. im tired. let me rest, please. i cant do this anymore.
AtschoolIG[OP]
21.12.2021 02:17
Linkall i ever do is try to help people who only ever hurt me in return. no one needs me or wants me or loves me. i am alone and i am nothing. i hurt everyone i try to help. im a mistake. im a pathetic, worthless mistake. i dont deserve to live, i dont. theres nothing here for me. i have no friends, and my boyfriend only pities me. im useless, thers no point in any of this.
and just in case ben sees this; hi. i know we talked about this earlier but i didnt believe a word you said. and you know that. youll be happier with me out of the way, i promise. i'll make it so much better. just promise you wont be sad, please? i hate the thought of you being sad. tell mom i love her and im sorry i failed her.and im sorry i failed you. i failed at being the wife you deserve and im so sorry. im sorry for all the times i hurt you and took advantage of you. im sorry i could never please you. im sorry for being in your life to begin with. please, never forget me, ok? dont forget our happy moments, my love. i love you so much.
AtschoolIG[OP]
21.12.2021 02:19
Linki hope to meet you in the next life, benrey. i love you, i love you more than the stars love to burn. you were my first and only love. never stop being you, keep being your amazing self once im gone, ok? i love you.