I ghosted a friend because she was very shitty not just to me but everyone else. Everytime I'd hangout with her she would vent to me and I'd do my best to give her advice but she would throw it away. Not just that but whenever I would need emotional support I would go vent to her and she would throw me her burden to make it seem like my problems were less. I tried helping her stop being egocentric but she wouldn't listen. Maybe I told my problems to the wrong person

I'm taking my life when I go back to school. I'm a waste of money for my parents and sometimes I feel like I shouldn't call the woman that gave me birth my mother. I'm ungrateful and I sometimes do feel like half of my parents problems would be gone if I slept forever. I barely have special people to mention but my brother who was there for me during my hardest times. Unfortunately, I'm weak mentally and physically if I tell anyone about my problems according to my parents. I'm not even allowed to get therapy because they change your "ways of thinking". And I never had anyone not even my closest friends to tell them how I feel about myself and my body and how I've chosen to treat it whenever I'm forced to cope.

1 week left before school. Everytime I think about my life after graduation I feel no excitement. I have all I need yet I feel so melancholic. I never like talking about my feelings because people have their own problems to go through. I spent almost everyday in bed last year, waking up, going to school, studying, eating, studying, sleeping was my cycle. And I feel like those days will come back again.

I havent had the opportunity to tell my friend to forget I ever existed. I lost to life, I'm an idiot for hiding how I feel. A family member will find my account and get a little insight. You can call me a stupid, selfish, human. How can you throw all our efforts to the TRASH you egoistic ****. I'm dead but alive and it makes no sense. I'm sorry, only God will read my heart. And I know he will never forgive me.

Healing is difficult, I don't know why I feel the need to try drugs