i wish i could just ask my friends to hug or cuddle or just. comfort them out of nowhere. i wish i didnt feel like people need to come to me with their problems first to be able to comfort them. i wish i could just be like hey r u okay without feeling like ill come off as trying to force someone to talk

i wish i wasnt so iffy about touch. im so deprived. to the point where ill get delusional about it and imagine arms around me or something. and ill feel a little tingle on my skin. my thing with holding others isnt as bad because i have my body pillow but fuuuuuuck there are just some days where its like holy shit i need arms around me i need to be held like a little guy or ill die

BYTUYYYYYHHHGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. please help i wish it was easy to be more expressive about how i feel or affectionate things id like to do