Speed Me Up=
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Vulcão's as a wolf
transformations
Ultra Instinct Goku (WIP 2)
the colour stone
Ugh
Isolation
by:
Iristherainwing 
154
154
11.07.2019
39 comments
Monkeyking71627
11.07.2019 19:13
LinkYour back!And this drawing is spectacular!
Iristherainwing[OP]
12.07.2019 16:50
LinkThank you :)
There's something else though, something I really should have stopped being hurt by by now but I can't seem to figure out HOW
No, I want to. I NEED to. It's probably not healthy to be stuck in my head about the same things any longer. I just need to spit it out.
OKAY, so do you remember when I told you I had that mega crush on Cara?
Remember that stupid game we played at retreat? The one in the cabins that kept switching from truth or dare to, like, who would you murder?
It wouldn't have bothered me that she didn't like me in any other circumstance, but I somehow got it in my head that she actually... liked me like that. And she KNEW I liked her. And she didn't tell me she was dating some seventh grader! She lead me on...or at least, that's what it felt like. Maybe all of it was in my head, i don't even know anymore. Maybe you won't understand why this bothers me so much, and that's fine. I just... don't you think she could have told me to my face? Instead of just throwing it at me during some stupid game? I'm her friend, she could've... acted like she cared in how she told me. Even if she didn't care. I feel like an idiot. A stupid, STUPID naive imbecile, and I totally ruined our friendship because I just HAD to have FEELINGS. Honestly I'm so pissed at the world right now, my entire LIFE feels like its crumbling and being torn to pieces.
Sorry to shove all my emotional crap on you. I'm kind of a mess right now.
aw, hey, its okay.
i know it might not seem like it, but trust me, it will all work out.
yeah, i agree, not telling you wasn't right. maybe she just assumed you knew? i don't know. i know she's sort of a flirty person, but still.
and hey, she's moving schools, you won't have to see her. that helps. i know it might not sound like it, but sometimes being gone is a good time to heal. to recover. i'm not sure. but you know, if you ever need to talk about ANYTHING, come to me and i'll listen :)
and, hey, do you mind if i spill somethin' on to you as well?
so you know how school is starting soon.
i'm pretty happy, mostly. i'm just nervous i won't have ANY friends. emma kate AND joy are leaving, they are both really close to me. and my friend sofa, idk if you remember her though. and i know i make friends easily, everyone tells me that, but i feel like people are my friends out of pity. idk. and i know i have you and emerson and liz, i just feel like they don't like me too much though.
and people think me and grace and jayci are friends, and yeah, i guess, but we never hang out outside of school, we just sit at the same lunch table. but yeah... i guess i'm insecure about my friendships?
I...have felt that way too. Like your friends don't really know YOU or they don't really care about you except to make themselves feel good by being nice and hanging out with the weird kid. But, the thing is...most people aren't that nice. If they don't care about someone, or don't like someone, they will either avoid that person or not even acknowledge their existence. If people didn't like you, they wouldn't try to talk with you or joke with you or be friendly towards you. Also,(I know other people have said this to you, but PLEASE BELIEVE ME) you have a REALLY magnetic personality, and people LIKE being around you. Not because they feel bad for you, but because you're honestly hilarious. For Jayci and Grace, I don't really know what else to tell you except that if you don't think they're really your friends or they don't know you well... then can't you do something about that? Insecurities are normal for people our age, and I want you to know you can always talk to me if you need someone to talk to.
Yep, I'm going to orientation. And I DEFINITELY hope we have some classes together. Are you in any of the honors ones?
My first question:
H O W ! ?
Ur an amazing artist! Wow, this is really good!
The emotion, and, wow, just amazing!!!
yuh sicko i'm lit i'm lIT FAM
hahahaahhaah no jk i just am really fond of the smell of smoke and it's lowkey not good and dang it hurts bc two of my favorite people on earth are rotting away in the ground, oh also my grandma and grandpa. yeah that sucks but gang gang am i right? sksksksk may god rest there souls. especially george and john knowing that they are burning in hell.
