My first crush was in first grade, typical popular boy, his name was jack (he ended up living in the same neighborhood as me)

My second one was in 2nd and 3rd grade, and I moved schools for 2nd and 3rd, but I moved to the same one I went to for 1st for 4th and 5th. Anyways, my crush was like a really nice guy, we were both super into fnaf, and he was a really good friend. Ended up never seeing him again, his name was Connor, he told me he was was Filipino, and I only remembered this because his last name was Philip and I thought all people with the name Philip were Filipino.

3rd one was in 7th grade, big tall guy named Nash, typical tall 7th grade white boy, we ended up dating, but then stayed friends as it didn’t work out

Next was in 8th grade, guy named John, I call him “he who shall not be named” for many reasons, ended up having lots of sexual encounters with him, including losing my v card, and I very much regret it. He broke up with me 2 months after our encounter saying “I never really had any romantic feelings for anyone.” That included me. Ended up breaking up with him and getting back with him 5 times.

And finally I met my current boyfriend first day of freshman year of high school in my PE class, we broke up in March, but ended up getting back together as we just broke up due to being scared of long distance and me blowing it out of proportion. He’s super nice and amazing, very cuddly and I miss him so much, he told me he was Vietnamese and knew a little when he was young and I thought that was so cool (I still do) I love my bf so much he’s my one person and I’m his jjba person, he’s very science based and I’m art based we are like Lea t to be I love him sooo much

I kept a lot of stuff like losing my v card and all the other stuff a secret from my current bf as I feel so ashamed of myself for doing it, and I feel even worse for keeping g it a secret, but I’m scared that if I tell him he’ll get upset

It’s fine..I just feel horrible for doing it, my mom ended up slut shaming me when she found out about me doing other stuff, I never told her about the mainly horrible thing.