Wait a second it's dead hours no body's ganna care if I spill the spoiled tea,,,,

Idk what's wrong with me honestly Maybe it's because of my depression? But I rlly don't want to have it, as stupid as it sounds bc like duh no one wants depression but like,,being sad and depressed just makes me feel even worse And that's mainly bc of my mom She tells me abt how bc I'm a child I should never be sad or mad or upset or frustrated, she says I don't have the right to

She tells me about how no one cares about how she feels inspite of everyone always asking, she complains about skipping meals inspite of always giving her food to other people and saying that she doesn't want it, even when we ask her straight up "Are you sure?"

My mom might be the cause of most of my issues ngl 💀💀 I'm really insecure about my body and my looks, I really want to be pretty, and hopefully be naturally beautiful and love myself as I am, I'm starting to like my face, but there are just these little things about me that my mom and dad keep pointing out. I'm a girl, and as a teenage girl I'm going to be naturally insecure. And y'all when I tell you they are literally bullying me,, They make fun of how I eat, how I look, the bumps and acne on my skin.

I also feel like at this point my mom doesn't even love me fr 💀 For a couple of months she's been telling me and my sister about how she doesn't want to be out mom, and how she's going to run away, and how she wishes she never had us. She's really hard on my sister for the stuff I'm insecure about. My mom tends to stop my sister from having juice and snacks and stuff bc my sister is a lil chubby It sucks rlly bad which might be why I'm so insecure and scared of gaining weight

I can understand the jokes but sometimes my mom and dad go too far, mainly my dad. Just about yesterday I think I ended up crying to my mom bc she and my dad were talking about just bc he came home I'm automatically going to cause problems, and how I always do it. The only thing that was wrong was that I was cramping bc I was on my period 💀 and then my dad asked me what was wrong all smart and rude and I said nothing and tried to brush it off, then my mom got upset with me for not telling. Pretty sure she was going to fight me too And obviously I wasn't going to tell them that I was upset bc they started talking shit while I was already in pain So I just told them I felt bad for giving them a hassle

My mom complains about me being cranky and giving attitude when I wake up in the morning but like I genuinely don't know how not to 💀💀 And tbh I don't think me sleeping earlier is going to help. I'm just not a morning person Also she keeps complaining Abt how my dad doesn't wake up with her anymore like okay? If you don't like me I'm the mornings and you want him up just wake him up with you like it's genuinely that simple smh

Okay now listen,,, My mom has been a person who most of my life has done physical discipline But like recently she's literally been telling me about how she wants to fight me and punch me. And then wonder why I'm not attached to her all like that. I'm scared for the day she actually does About a week ago she said she had a dream that she punched me in the face and was excited to do it Something happens and she basically backs me into a corner and stuff and I think she punched me in the back? Idk but she's punched me multiple times before And I'm pretty sure she's choked me up against a wall when I was little too,,,,

I'm also really scared about coming out to my mom She says she's not homophobic bc her mom was gay, which she was it was awesome I wish she was still alive genuinely, I think she would of helped me with my self discovery and finding myself. Anyways anytime I express interest in gay/lgbtq+ stuff she seems,,,upset?,, Almost disgusted? I'm scared to tell her I'm pan, but I think she already knows this,, so idk why I'm so nervous NVM,, That might be it ngl, other than that life's ben alr ig? I'm just trying to keep from not killing myself at this point But I try not to think abt it, the shit my mom keeps telling me about not being sad is getting to me I feel like on the end,,,,what do I genuinely have to complain about? All my issues are caused by me right? Who am I to complain about them? Life is easy I'm a kid I should be happy. Then why aren't I happy?,,

Okay okay done with the rant Idk how to feel after that 💀

Tysm ♥️ I rlly appreciate this Gus,,,

Sure i dont mind whenever u want It's fine ig? It just gives me some type of motivation to want to leave and move out or go tk college, at least making new friends in highschool means that I can have sleep overs and stay farther away, then my mom won't have to complain about how i sit in my room all day. I feel bad for my sister though she'll still have to deal with her for six more years 💀💀

I love u 2 ♥️♥️ I swear bri ur so awesome I genuinely couldn't ask for a better partner, let alone girlfriend ♥️♥️♥️ Ur so awesome and I rlly appreciate you and all you do 4 me♥️ Tysm<3

It rlly helps thank you,,