I'm back
73 comments
drawing-mage
18.02.2021 23:38
Linksup..
--Dabi--[OP]
18.02.2021 23:38
LinkYo, you good?
drawing-mage
18.02.2021 23:39
Linknone of us are ok so yes/no
--Dabi--[OP]
18.02.2021 23:40
Link...
Don't make me sad, too bro(Not asuming gender btw) ;>;
I still feel like shit but....at least i don't wanna hang myself anymore...well...at least i don't have the urge to
I don't feel like murdering myself I feel like murdering people never in my life
I'm stuck with a f*cking b*tch ass homophobic transphobic basically lgbtq+phobic step mom I'm waiting until my little sibling born before I tell her I want her to die
I'm constantly trying to live up to everyone's expectations and it's eating away at me not only that but my dad hates my guts from the moon and all the way f-ing back. my mom acts as if I'm just fine. only my nana understands me.
he favors my sisters all the time but is still really mean to them...I know that it's because I'm a boy...I remember the exact words..."I never did want a boy and now I know why"
the worst part is that at school I'm a whole different person! I go from hiding in my room crying in the closet... to a geek that everyone knows. Im always telling jokes and I now know that that is a way that I protect myself from the reality that I live in.
not even my best friends know what's going on inside of me. and I always feel so unstable... I feel like I could just grab the bow that's in my room and unleash the homicidal part of me on my family or you know just anyone...
only my dad care but my step mom hates me and I think my birth mom went to 7-Eleven to get a pack of cigarettes but never came back
but then again i cant kill my dad... it would cause my family to collapse. my dad is the one who brings in most of the money without him my mom would kill herself. I would be in jail or dead or in the forest hiding... and I don't want to think what would happen to my sisters.
because i never tell anyone about my feelings I keep it all bottled up inside.
its just so hard to keep it all inside. I just can't satisfy him! and I'm the kind of person that has to impress others. has to be the best. that's why I'm such a geek I'm one of the best at math and reading and if I'm not a geek then WHO AM I!
at this point just hearing my dad yell at my sisters or mom can trigger me to start shaking not only from fear but from anger.
Give me nice give me a knife give me a knife I want to stab him if he's going to be a fcking at a hole he doesn't deserve anyone ( excuse my French)
some times my dad says things like "when I'm in my casket you will miss me won't u" and all I can think is that ill put him in his casket and that I won't miss him.
and at this point of scared of myself. Im a good therapist because I can understand everyone's pain and help them get through it the way I wished someone would help me.
I sometimes wish I could end those who hurt me and my friends
Theirs someone at my school and she is such a jerk
I literally want her dead
She threatened my best friend and I WANT HER DEAD
I said to one of my other friends that if killing someone wren't iligal Id murder the girl/jurk and feel no emotion of regret
She hurt my best friend and I hate w=her with all my heart =)
omg blast the song non-stop repete https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIIM29Z_yu4
I am also a protective little sh*t (even though I'm 5,10) I have the same feeling to this one girl who does the same.
gtg they are calling me sorry T.T here goes nothing... brb in 30 min
I'm BLASTING this music right now I love it so much.. one of the few things keeping me sain.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbAuFU9loQg
