God ****ing dammit of course when things start turning up I wish I wasn't such a **** up I wish for once I could do something right I wish for a week everything would just be fine.

God I miss here 💀 Like it hasn't even been that long but I hardcore miss being able to freely come here 💀💀 My mentally unstable ass wasn't meant to be on this site, but here I am ig,,, There goes my nice weekend I'll try to sneak my phone back but like it's probably going to be really hard 💀 And I know damn well my parents are probably going to check where I put it last B4 I go to sleep

Sorry venting but yeah this was meant to be an update Idk if I'll be able to be here tm Actually I think I might but it won't be the same 💀💀 Maybe I can beg my parents to let me on but with how things are still going it's probably going to be a no God dammit I hate myself so much

No tf I'm not argh for ****s sake if only you knewajbdnsnx I'm genuinely not. I'm never here,,, I'm never here for my friends or even my gf, I keep letting people down I keep saying one thing and something happens and it ****s up my plans I say I'm able to be on all night BOOM my phone gets taken I say I'll be able to be here for the weekend BOOM my phone gets taken I KEEP LETTING PEOPLE DOWN I KEEP GETTING THEIR HOPES UP AND IT HURTS

WAIT NO I'M SORRY THAT SOUNDED REALLY MEAN PLEASE DON'T BE UPSET OR MAD I'M SORRY I'M NOT MAD AND I'M SORRY I KNOW U WERE JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER I'M SO SO SORRY

FUXK DAMMIT I'M SORRY

IK BUT STILL I LET PEOPLE DOWN SND IDK HOW NOT TO AND I'M STILL SORRY

It's alr idk it's just the same issues over an dover again ig