That I'm too much for people
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MicroMelody 
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02.12.2021
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AGoreyDemise
02.12.2021 23:28
Linkhow? literally how?
personally you are my favorite person. you're perfect to me.
MicroMelody[OP]
02.12.2021 23:36
LinkI'm reflecting
Sorry. Just a friend of mine left FA and I'm reflecting back. I wasn't that good of a friend to them to be honest. I wasn't there for them. Like how I'm not there for many of you guys
Child, you are more than good enough. Plus I read what was being said. It's not you it's the site itself. This sit is really frustrating and the people on it are frustrating. This site has a lot of bad memories for people rooted to it. For example, it's why I abandoned the other account. I didn't want to deal with people here anymore. It hurt to do so, it gave anxiety and it constantly made me feel bad. That has nothing to do with you. That person needs a cool down. That doesn't mean you are a bad friend. And you can't be a best friend to everyone. That's too many people to keep track of. You do your best and that's more than enough. Don't beat yourself down for someone elses personal feelings. They need to to rest.
Just like did. Just like I'm still doing. The only reason I am on here is because of you. But I hope you feel better.
But it hurts. I couldve been there for them more. Yes the outcome would've been the same but maybe I could've provided them a little more peace of mind. You know
You can't make everyone happy. Plus good memories have a tendency to become bad when the broad image is bad. Don't beat yourself down for something that isn't even your fault. It just makes you feel like trash. I do it all the time. Please think more highly of yourself. You don't gain much from wallowing. You did what you could.
There's just so much happening. So much that is needed to be swallowed but all that is being swallowed is so big that its chocking me.
Would you like to talk about it?
You don't have to deal with it alone. Even if I don't like it or agree with it, I'll still listen.
Its just that a whole lot is happening at school that once I get home, I don't want to do any work. Then when I get onto here, I can unload my mind using my characters........they are a vent to me
Alright. I'm glad you have a venting method, but think we're going to have to think up a plan for you because whatever is happening isn't working. I'll do what I can to make you feel okay.
I think I just need to drop out of English Honors. It doesn't make me happy. Its only making me stressed out I don't even have any fun with writing stories anymore. My teacher and how the class runs is not how I run. I can't be in that class. There's too much on my shoulders at this point
Alright, well, it's already near the end of the semester so Honors ELA is almost over. Unless you have it all year. Then talk to your counselor about changing it to normal ELA classes for next semester.
I just don't know if I can tell my parents. How will they react. Will they yell at me for slacking off. Even if I do tell them, will they understand. I thought that ELA honors was going to be like Honors Math classes but they aren't (yes they do go a year)
But I'm thinking about doing it since I can't stay afloat without struggling to say up in the water.
Then talk about it with them. They may not like it but it's better than having your mental health deteriorate. It's just not worth it. Plus, a possible failing grade is literally useless.
I just don't know if I can without angering them. My dad always overanalyzing everything I say, my mom just scowl me when she finds out I've been doing something that goes against what they think is okay like procrastinating on work. I hate it and yet I deserve it most of the time
Sometimes, it doesn't matter what they think. I know procrastinating isn't idle. It's a bad habit. But if it'll help you then it's necessary. I'm worried about you. You don't have to take my idea but if you decide to continue the way you are. You need to stop procrastinating. It's only making things worse. I know you're tired but like I said before, I'm worried about you.
I know I need to stop but.......................too much all is too much. What she wants us to do is too much. Her way of teaching is too much. I need my time. I can't work every single day. Its driving me into the ground. Her honors class does a Quarter project and in that quarter project is all that work for the project. We get homework every single day in that class. I get that its an Honors class but there's already so much in ELA
I already have one and don't follow it /~\ all of the plans I made over the summer to make this School year awesome and focused crumbled into nothingness. I can't follow a school schedule I can't use a planner I can't keep up with everything.
I use alarms to keep track of things and constantly put them on snooze. It eventually gets really annoying so I just do the thing that was planned t that time.
I probably won't use it but thank you for the advice.................sorry I'm just down in the dumps or my mind is just saying crap at this point I'm not sure
Can we do the Childhood friend AU where Malcolm is nice. I want some fluff
