Why am I so anxious and dumb all the time, why can’t I read emotions like a normal person, why do I have to overthink everything, why can’t I remember stuff, why am I so awkward in pms and in general have no personality. Grr it feels like a a huge heavy roadblock,,, I feel like it’s hard to explain in I am not good at words or emotions unless it’s in my head it just ether my chest feels really heavy or not, I wish I was a better person and someone that people could comfortably talk with,, but I don’t even like talking, I’m afraid I’ll say something wrong or something triggering, ending a friendship I really care abt. I care too much for my friends to hurt them so staying away is best for everyone and that makes everything confusing bc sometime I think abt a person so often I think we are close friends but no,, that all just happened in my head ,, I never even talk with them. I want to blame someone for my lack a people skill but there is no one, I can’t even call people on the phone bc I’m afraid