(Note: I am not professionally diagnosed with anything but depression and ADHD are suspected and my family is genetically predisposed to them) MAJOR content warnings! So a long time ago I had sui//cidal ideation and sometimes did unconventional self harm and self sabotage. That only lasted for two years though until I evolved to thinking things like “I don’t want to die, but I wouldn’t mind if I did.” That’s been my relationship with death for a long time now, like I’m not going to actively seek it, but I felt like if I happened to die in an accident I wouldn’t really mind. Like, I was looking forward to dying, but understood that actually sui//cide is bad. But recently I’ve been able to evolve again into thinking “I want to live.” Instead of being passive I think now I would avoid dying if the chance popped up. That’s a really big thing for me, so I was happy to share it! But if you’re in the situation i was in, I implore you to get professional help... This could have gone so much faster

Thank you! 🥺 I am proud! Although I didn’t really do anything, I really don’t know why I’ve improved but I’m just glad I did