Hyperventilating and crying
9 comments
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:30
LinkI just love him so much i havent stopped loving him i've loved him since november and i remember him texting me first on snap when he got it cause i posted on my story that I was bored and he said hi to me and we bonded over how shit our school was and he was so understanding and fun to talk to and then he cheered me up when i finally had the courage to be open about my problems and he was super nice and supportive and i loved him and he loved me and we were both autistic together and loved each other and now we're just friends and i miss when we were madly in love talking about what we loved about each other i ****ing miss that and i'll never have it again. I miss him loving me especially in the storm shelter after school when we would make out and cuddle and i just never felt so safe with a cis man
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:32
LinkAnd then i miss him constantly telling me to put my head up in the hallways because i never do that since im uncomfy looking anywhere but the floor
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:33
LinkAnd i miss him being my flight commander in rotc and never targeting me when he yells and telling me explicitly after class he wasn't yelling at me and that I was being good
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:33
LinkBut of course i had to cut myself too deep and scare him out of loving me
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:34
LinkAnd every day i try to show him how mature and recovered i am in hopes that he will love me again
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:35
LinkBecause he is the best thing thats ever happened to me aside from Luce.
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:36
LinkI want him to reccomend songs to me again
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:36
LinkEven though our music tastes are different i still liked listening to his music because it was what he liked and i was his girl
Killugami[OP]
15.09.2023 20:37
LinkI wrote so many poems about him and loved him so dearly