okay let me explain stuff-
13 comments
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:16
LinkI hate venting to people
it makes me feel like a burden and like I am just bringing people down and I hate doing that and ranting and all of that shit
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:18
Linki went through a lot of shit at the mental hospital, that I need to get off my chest but I cant because i wont let myself do that. I just hate talking to people about my problems it makes me feel like I am just ruining people's moods and I dont want to make people upset i dont care if people say they are okay with me venting about what i went through, i still am spreading negativity on some tough things that happened
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:20
LinkI feel like that conversation i had with you kinda showed that I am dealing with stuff and dont know how to cope
it sucks so bad i just want to feel like I can talk to you about it and it is my fault that i feel like i cant talk to you. i trust you completely to listen to me if i have something going on, but i just dont feel like i should talk to you about it because it is my problems not yours
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:21
Linkive been sleeping so much recently and when i am not sleeping i am playing genshin and not talking to anyone because i feel like i cant trust myself to not make others feel bad with my additude
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:21
Linkim not finished talking i gotta do something real quick
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:29
Linkyou dont know how better my day gets when i talk to you about random shit
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:31
Linkive also started getting body issues
I just look at myself and think i am so ****ing ugly even when people say im not i just want to see myself as pretty too
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:40
Linkshe started telling me all the things wrong with me
my arms look anorexic
my hair is a gross color
my eyes make me look dead
my thighs make me look fat
my stomach is getting bigger
my waist is also getting bigger
I look weird without glasses
my chest is small
she says so much i want her to move away already those are just some examples
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:40
Linksome of them dont even make sense but still hurt when she says it
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:42
Linkand all i want is to talk to my boyfriend about the bullying and what the staff did to me at the mental hospital but I want him to be happy and I want to be the happy in his life i dont want him to have to worry about if i am doing okay but he is also the only one i trust with a lot of this stuff but i wont say anything that happens because i dont want to make him feel bad for me
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:43
Linki dont want him to think i dont love him or that I am ignoring him because he did something wrong
Killugami[OP]
13.03.2022 22:44
Linkbecasue i do
i ****ing love him probably way too much and he is all i can think about every day
i want to talk to him but i feel disgusted with myself