I feel really lonely. It's like whenever I try to be around others they shut me out. I feel lonely in a lot of ways..

I always feel like I'm really unattractive, too. I know everybody feels like that, but I mean, a bunch of kids have people who enjoy their appearance and nobody seems to enjoy my physical appearance nor my appearance in general. It's stupid, I know. But it's hard being without somebody that you trust will care.

Of course it's not. Everyone else is way out of MY league, to me. If you want to see what I look like, just ask. I've done some face reveals before. Not like they're any good. But I do those to earn trust with people, because I want them to know I trust them. Thank you, by the way, for caring. And for talking to me in general. I appreciate it, you know. It's hard when I can't talk to people, but you've been doing something for me that not a lot of people can really do. You're actually making me feel better, hah.

I hope you know you're excelling in your goal with me, then.

So.. Soccer practice kicked my ass today. :/

Hah My position often ends up with me getting hit by the ball. Or me getting hit in general. Or me, hitting someone else. I actually brome a girl's nose just from her running into me. Oh and one time I was running down the field and I passed the ball like 5 seconds ago, when this huge ass defender comes out of nowhere and makes a late challenge. She literally hip check me at least five feet into a fence. I basically flew into the fence lmao