Is it trying to make me feel angry? Is it trying to make me feel sad? Is it trying to make me jealous? Congratulations, you’ve succeeded.

No normal human being posts this much about ****ing their gf. Seriously. You know that shit hurts me. Yet you keep doing it. Knowing it deeply bothers me. What the hell are you trying to accomplish here?!

Like seriously, nobody ****ing cares that you let your girlfriend peg you nine times a week. So why the **** would you post about it?!

And you call me manipulative. Sheesh.

Look, I’m super mad at you for this but I don’t hate you.

Sorry for going off on you—

You’ve implicitly stated you were in it for the sex mostly.

I don’t know, I’m just- not in a good place emotionally I’ve ****ed up worse than I can fix

But like how your girlfriend is the only thing that brings you happiness, you’re the only thing that brings me happiness

I know I’m being excessively clingy. I know I should probably just back off. But I can’t. I can’t bring myself to do it.

I know, it’s just how you got to dating her that bothers me... And I actually love you...

You were my Aijin... I can’t let go of that...

I can’t let go of you...

I’m sure your girlfriend means as much to you as you do to me, and I don’t want to take that from you...

But I just can’t let go...

Please talk with me...

I made this last week, it’s basically everything I’ve been saying over and over- But there’s this one paragraph which I don’t think I’ve mentioned before.

I’m sorry too. We’re both at fault here.

My dad wants my phone now, I’ll talk with you in the morning. I love you Joelle. I’m sorry for everything.

My name is Connor, by the way... I go by Chrys usually, but only online.