whatever this is that youre going through must be killing you inside, tearing you apart outside, and hurting everyone around you. i must not be everyone because I don't feel a single part of your hatred that you say everyone feels for you. i cannot tell you anything that could make you change your feelings nor can I say "I understand" when I don't. i want to understand. i want you and everyone who exists in this world with any pain, sadness, anger, matter of fact feelings to be comfortable feeling the things they feel. don't beat yourself up over whatever is going on, no matter the size. i know you could say that's easy for me to say but its not. it took me 4 years to be able to even say what im saying. you don't piss me off, Im not scared. i am worried but im not faking. something inside of me tells me youre not okay and i cant do anything but trust my gut and hope this helps you <3