I love mmaking friends and i love everyone and socializinng But theres always a little voice in my head trying to tell me that everyone that isnt close to me hates me and wants to kill me yea even though i know thats not true I think im just self concious But not in the i hate myself type of way I just feel like OK wait im contradicting myself i say i feel like people hate me and then i say i dont hate myself but where does that feeling come from if i dont hate myself THIS ISNT ADDING UP!!!!!!!! SOCIAL ANXIETY KILL YOURSELLF

anyways im kind of glad my deltarune hyperfixation is returning Spamton G Spamton they can never make me hate you he was such a big comfort character for me in 2022 when my life was progressively deteriorating 2022 was such a shit year yet such a memoriable year for me its like a yay and a nay type of thing for me idk I dont think i was very smart in 2022. Ok i say that as if i wasnt twelve but still

I cant even focus on my schoolwork my sleep schedule is shitting itself again and i have a counselor meeting tomorrow im so cooked

IM AHVIHGN TEXTURE ISUESI MGKMSSSS WHY WHY DO I AHVE TO HAV SENSORY ISSUES GUN IN MY MOUTH GUN IN MY MOUTH this day is so ass