why would anyone love me i just dont understand i dont understand why anyone cares about me i dont deserve anything i always mess up and people just leave me and i try so hard but i **** up everything i cant even take care of myself properly im so ugly i literally hate everything about me i wish I didn't exist because everyone is just lying no one actually cares about me its all just g ****ing fake they think its funny i never wanted to be born in this stupid world i wish I had died at birth like I was meant to i wish I was never even a thought in anyone's mind everyone just laughs at me i only have 4 friends irl now everyone left me i cant do anything right I just need to stop trying i keep messing up why am i so ugly everyone tells me Im ugly i know I am ok you dont need to tell me anymore its not funny anymore just leave me alone why does everyone hate me i dont like myself either but I just wish I never existed everything hurts me one way or another

and for some stupid reason every time I see murder drones clips on yotube i get waves of anxiety and it feels like a bullet in my chest I dont want my favorite show to become a trigger for me

god i wish a bullet would go through my fujcking chest sometimes

i wish no one had ever thought of me then i could just die and no one would even care

bru whay am I even saying i sound so emo rn

im fine Im gonna play roblox