sadly enough this will hurt alot

so all through out 7th grade i had a lot of built up anger. and i didn't know how to get it out. So KICKING was my stupid option i chose. I ended up kicking a lot of my friends when they did stupid shit. But in the shin. Nothing more than that. I respected them to much to hurt them more than that. I eventually went to MIdnight tea which happened to be my RL best friend. When. i started feeling really guilty and stuff i asked her if i could dig my nails into her arm to settle myself down since i don't really feel pain unless its emotionally or caused by people i really care about. ANd she did. WHich I'm grateful for and yet regret everyday. A few minutes ago I went into our group chat and said one thing that meant absolutely nothing to the events that were about to happen. My friend I call Jayjay kinda started threatening to kill me and torture me the next time I see him for the things I did. ANd my friend I'm going to call S kept typing in all CAPS LOCKED "CAN I WATCH" and stuff like that. Now-

I am horrified about going back to school. It may have been a joke but for me it hurt a lot. I have been crying for a while now and i cant stop. I tried to escape with music like i always do but today i couldn't. I wish i could. I am sorry for everything i did to them. I really am. I cried so much because of the things I've done and wishing i could just tell my past self to stop but i know i couldn't. I am sorry. I am so sorry

i geuss thats it yup me being a ****ing asshole and finally getting my karma thank u for reading and its ok if u guys want to unfollow and make hate about it i respect all of ur descisions

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