I'm tired because i have to do many things that is just like a replay of events, I always have to do a lot of things like drawing something for a family member, get scolded a lot, trying to be very active on the internet, not being able to talk with my friends on discord a lot, i can't eat a lot, i lost my appetite a lot because of the scolding that has been happening for years, i can't sleep from having to do a lot of things for people on reality and on the internet, my insomnia is just getting worse because i even have to get scolded at early times, i tried to ask for some assistance on how can i be able to go through this but i just can't, i even have to go through sadness of losing contact with some nice people on discord, i was forced to do this and that and those but not even giving me a lot of breaks.

my head hurts from all of the hair pulling and that shit, i'm getting bad grades because i cannot focus on school with all of this arguments and scoldings, my confidence to make that lots of friends have worsen thanks to the insults.