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sleepdeprivedweeb 
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27.04.2020
40 comments
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:15
LinkThank you...to everyone to helped me... theres some speficic thank you's that I will say but first...let me speak.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:18
LinkMy entire life was...bad. I'm not sure where to start so lets start when I was younge. Nobody prepped me for the real world. They never got me involved into issues. I was...happy. But then it all changed. My mind slowly lost its color and turned into a spinning swirl of blacks and greys and it was sucking me down and out of myself...I forgot who I really was...then my father. He has been to jail almost 16 times in the spam of 13 years...he KILLED someone close to me. My little brother...he was only one and a half and I was 3 so i didn't remember him till he told me.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:19
LinkHe mentally abused me every day I was with him. He said I ate like a pig. He fed me on a ****ING PRISION SCHEDUAL! I didn't deserve that! Everyday...most of the time I wouldn't get a full 3 meals. not to mention he would indirectly find ways to call me FAT. which is probably why Im anorexic. thanks dad.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:21
LinkHe said I needed to "toughen up" And he would poke my back.so hard it left marks. And he said "It doesn't hurt don't whine" I only ever had 30 min tv, 30 min computer. And by 30 min computer, I mean "30 min to do electronic hw" And tv time was "backround noise while doing more homework!"
My school...
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:24
LinkI get bullied, catcalled, harrased...and the princible doesn't do shit. Its an off and on thing with most of my friends and I was made fun of for my nickname because of its reason. because I'm genderfluid. I'm mocked, teased...someone even told me to kill myself...and that night...I cut myself. so deep it bled for 5 minitues straight.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:25
LinkAnd finally...here on fa.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:26
Linknot much to say about fa (hey that ryhmed...hah)
but I have had fake friends and bullies on here...
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:28
LinkNow to the BIG thank you's. Thank you kylie-kane77...You singlehandedly were able to give me more support and confidence in under 6 minitues then my dad did in 14 years.
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:29
Linkand thank you to artist-boy...you made me understand that I don't deserve any of the pain I've felt...
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:30
Linkand thank you kindfoxcitty...for always telling me that I shouldn't let others drag me down like they used to...
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sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
27.04.2020 05:34
LinkSorry If I deleted your comments...and seriously. Thank you for reading this and commenting...
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Now I'll be right back...I'm going to eat. and I WONT throw it up...!
thank you for making my day i will turn your colors around from black and grey to rainbows and make that sadness go away your my darling and remember to fight back to get that happiness back.Remember i'm always by your side im your angel day and night your beauty is there no more starving and no giving up try your hardest try your luck and one day maybe youll look up and see a light and finally get the happiness you need im here to pray with you if you please.
remember dont break a heart fix the heart
Hold on to your dreams
Even if they seem to far away to grasp.
Hold on to happiness
Even if storm clouds block your sun.
Hold on to your love
Even if no one else will.
Hold on to your smile
Even if they tempt you to frown.
Hold on to YOU
Even when people tell you your not perfect.
Because that's not there call
It's yours
It's yours alone
And you should only let voices of support hold up my one promise:
You are beautiful.
Kind
Wonder to this world
Gentle like a flower.
But all the same,
You are Fierce
Strong
Brave
And providing
Like the cactus that blooms in the vast desert
Sharp and beautiful
and still willing to lend others a drink when there is no water.
And of all the people in the world,
I'm proud to be one that could know you.
And support you
And be the one to help you see that you aren't alone
And that you are the prickly pear
not the rose.
(I have no idea what I just said, but I am so glad I could help you!)