Vent...
by:
sleepdeprivedweeb 
373
373
16.04.2020
30 comments
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
16.04.2020 15:07
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sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
16.04.2020 15:09
LinkIf your confused...I'm anorexic. Not a day goes by where I body shame myself...Everyday I look at that girl in the mirror and I judge her. Every. ****ing. day. whenever I try to eat, part of me tells me I don't deserve it, and so I go to the bathroom and try to throw it up but I can't...so I beat myself up about it, mentally and physically...
Its fine!
I ate breakfast at home!
I'm not hungry!
its all sad little lies...
sleepdeprivedweeb[OP]
16.04.2020 15:11
LinkI can't just let myself eat. Everyday when I eat a meal I think "I don't deserve to eat"
Dozens of meals skipped
tons of food given to my brother or mom because I don't deserve it...
Every goddamn day...
StrangerBee
16.04.2020 20:54
LinkHave you heard of jaiden animations? She made a song that I think might help
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36QMyiRAv-Y
I'm so sorry..you are beautiful even if I have never met you. You are beautiful inside and outside..I'm just so sorry I always think I'm fat ect. So I kinda get where you come from? Would you like to chat or talk? If not I hope you understand soon with time that you are perfect the way you are..again we are all here for you
Yeah...And it isn't just that i think I'm fat. I'm horrid, my head shapes weird, my hairs awful, my personality...I have no good qualities and the only way I get by is by causing myself physical pain by starving myself...
But you deserve to eat..I think you should try to at least nibble on ANYTHING. I'm not mad though we all live yoy. And want you to be alright.
Anything...? Or any food? I tried chewing gum to ignore it but...I wanna vomit from hunger pain...
I use jokes to cope with the feeling of stuff like that DONT do this. I always joke about like-
I'm so fat lol xd
OMG I'm so fricking ugly xd
Wow I look werid lol-
Stuff like that I think others are prettier than me tbhz but I have learnt that we are all beautiful in our own way! Hey you have a talent! DRAWING you draw better than me and half of the people on this site! Be proud! We are here..
You should eat a snack like a cracker or ANYTHING even if you don't finish it, you should just try have a smile for good luck
:)
I do that too...but, Its all true...I'm fat...I am overweight for my age...If I was skinny it would all be better...I'm basically...on a strict diet...but...I'll be fine...
If you say so, I don't want to push you, things like this take time..what could J do right now to make you feel better?
I don't think anyone can help me...I'm falling down a never ending hole filled with an ocean of my tears and every time I try to escape a wave pulls me back under until I can't breathe...
We will help you. We are all here I will go as far as making a acct to help you and get people to notice you. I am here and will always be you are w verteren frendo and ALWAYS remember that. Okay..? You should do some more vents if that helps I mean, I guess I made some vents on my acct, nobody cares though so have my heart and a flipanim star because you DESERVE it :)
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Everything is fixable..it might take a few years but one day it will be fixed if not..take a paper you rip it up and glue it back on, you "fixed" it but it's not the same..Because forgive and forget, people made that damage and now it can't be undone but we will try our best to fix it! And we will help you :)❤️❤️⭐⭐
Now I feel bad...because you willing to support me but I don't have anything for you as a thank you...
Pshh we are not talking about ME we are helping you get better I don't need a thank you! ❤️❤️