my mind was playing tricks to me

I can't thug it out, and its hard for me to move on gang.

Life is like a movie critic, each action you do, people would give off different opinion and it would just bounce right off of your skin, but if its the actual movie critics that are your ex best friend or a family or a ex love one some shit, they're going to say something it and it'll just pierce your heart.

guilt trip sucks, I ****ing hate it, i'm going to be completely honest with you, coming back here ****ing suck, I ****ing hate it when they're still talking about me saying some dumbass shit how I ruined my old relationship back in last summer, thinking that I haven't changed, Yeah I admit I did made the relationship uncomfortable, I'm sorry that I damage you and your mental health, around 75% I don't even interact with them because I don't care about the past because I learn how to "move" on, but they're always still here saying some shit that gets on my ****ing nerves.

I apologize for no ****ING absolute reason to them, I AM JUST TRYING TO ****ING CHANGE

I wanted to refix my ****ing mistakes in the past, I want to become a good person and support other ****ing people, I came back to this ****ing website so I can support and care for ****ing others, while some rando keeps yapping about how I should just go kms! Yeah what I did was in the wrong, but that's in the ****ing past, I was a complete dickhead in the past, But right now I have change myself to become a better person

at the same time, I ****ing hate expressing my emotions, I'm angry and sad at the same ****ing time by typing this shit, and I know this is how a human is supposed to be, an emotional character with a complete may mindset.

I always keep find some ****ing way to screw my other relationship up, and most of the time I didn't mean to, I am just a immature person,6/3/24 that is the day that I will ****ing get a shotgun with two loaded bullets, if I post for 1 day, that means I did my goals, if I post for more than 1 on that day, that means I didn't completed my goals

Right now, I'm just so fucing pissed for what i'm seeing, half of it is completely my fault,and the other half is just someone who still hate me after I'm just trying to do good for people.

I'm going to say there name at complete honest. Khan/Bella, please just leave me alone, I get it you hate me but dude just leave me alone, Literally right now I'm still ****ing improving my life right now, I'm trying to help others and fix my mistake in the past. now I'm not going to say the other one but I will write about my actions. I am deeply sorry, and even though we're not friends, and this is like the 55th time you seeing me apologizing to you right now, I just can't get it off of my mind, I was in the wrong, I didn't mean to hurt you or play with your feelings, sometimes I can go far and it just slip out of my mouth by saying it, I admit, I am a horrible human being, But right now, I'll use my mistakes and promise I will change for being the better good. In the end I still care about you, you're a good person, and you helped me through out my struggles, and so did I, and I just wanted to say thank you for being my friend.

I finally got it off of my ****ing chest, I know its going to comeback to me but I don't care, as long I helped and support others yeah I'm going to be fine.

Lowkey though, I don't care if Khan fans come in and harassed me, I'm just going to callin back up? yeah sure. Right now, and this is for everyone, but I completely changed, and for now on I became a better person. DONE TYPING

(the only person I was ranting about was Khan/Bella, not the other one, they didn't do anything wrong.)

what kind of Asian are you, bcuz I swear you're hmong

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