last time i got em my mama did it for me so idk her technique

lowkey dont feel like goin in her room rn

oh yea good news the led lights work even without me puttin them up on the wall i just wanna change the color tho cuz they blue rn

i want a green room rn

im literally usin a slotted screwdriver to push down on this damn thing nd pushin the other part out bro help💔💔💔 what do i do

parts of the thing i gotta release is literally broken off from how much force im usin to pull on this damn thing

there should be clearer instructions like a technique to use to release this damn thing

my dumb dumb ass ass

found out how to change the color i didnt need to release the button thing yall

its bout 12 ima just rearrange my room tmr nd use my bed as a step stool cuz everything else i have that i could use is either too short or too unstable cuz my ass too fat

also bc i gotta coean up my room too but it aint rhat messy but i still wanna clean up before i jusy rearrange my room yk

alr bye bye my stomach hurts

IK ITS ONLY BEEN 12 MINS SHUT UP IM READY FOR MY CLOTHES TO GET HERE CUZ NOT ALL OF THEM HERE YET!!!!

i wanna try on my new clothes nd make outfits nd seek out the house during the day while nbs home….

i cant hang out wit my hg or nun so ima just be hangin out all by myself showin off my new fits nd havin a good time

i wanna go to sky zone. i remember before i graduated i told eb that i wanted to go to sky zone nd they told me i couldnt go nd that we had to go to a restaurant talk abt takin away my voice

then the day of the graduation we aint go nowhere we just went home honestly it still pisses me off til this day cuz only 2 ppl went out of the 8 ppl who were supposed to go but its okay

its fine

i didnt wanna celebrate my graduation wit them anyways after they didnt go to my grad, lwokey glad it started pourin down rainin as soon as we got out

anyways enough of that now cuz its kinda ruinin my mood

im so ready to try my fckin clothes on

i finally ordered myself a binder last year cuz like i said my boobs growin nd im not likin it at all so i got me a binder so im just waitin for mainly that to get here along wit my other clothes so i can decide what hairstyle to do

so far for the most part the hairstyles that would go rlly good wit my wardrobe is rlly long pink nd black braids, my natural hair in twists, nd an afro

my hair must go wit my outfit

lowkey should i start tryin wigs nd shit cuz i never have

which idk why i never have since like i did say i go from wantin to be a boy to bein a girl to nonbinary then to both

nd it repeats inna diff order

i can literally slap on a wig whenever i feel like bein a girl holy shit im being smart for once

only thing tho my hair thick asl itll be a lump in the back nvm💔

my hair long nd thick naturally save me save me

i love it tho but it excercises tf out my arms nd hands cuz why is my hands lockin up from combin my hair

crazy

im so ready for my flag to get here nd when i say my flag i dont mean pride flag

black american flag cuz im black😼

my mom would be disappointed to find out i still have gender issues nd its not a phase from when i was like 13

oh yea i think its important to restate now i go by he/him nd he/him only even when i feel like bein a girl he/him

i feel like if i let bein called she/her slide whenever i feel girly i wouldn’t be able to go back to bein he/him

i want ice cream now

lowkey i might go thru my old phone again i had hella good vids i just left behind on it

the btch gotta charge up tho

i remember seein this one vid where i was sittin in the cafeteria talkin to my hg nd these girls started arguin over sumn so i started recordin just incase anyone started fightin but nb fought💔💔 honestly i wasnt even holdin the camera up anyways tho i was just waitin for a punch to be thrown

honestly i think they was arguin over a man or sumn hopefully it wasnt over no man tho cuz arguin over a man as a woman is crazy

not even crazy just embarrassing

cuz at the end of the day he still fckin wit both of yall, yall arguin wit eachother for no reason BEAT HIS ASS

i remember the time my schools power went out like twice in the same week

one was in the middle of science class when i was actually in class cuz surprise surprise i like science its fun to me nd the second i walked into the school nd the lights was off

nd they didnt let me just go back out either too, i was already late asl to school anyway so my mama hadda take me to school since i couldnt drive

still cant drive cuz my mama hates me havin autonomy ig

she doesn’t want me to get a license yet she does i cant get a job cuz i gotta be at home watchin the kids while eb sleep even if they’re at school durin the day ik if i did get a job i’d be too tired to tend to my lil siblings needs

literally what do i do atp

this is hinderin me from bein able to move tf out i want out i need out

its tiring bein around these people but i love them to death

i cant even be myself i cant even talk like how i want to while im at home

wtf do i do atp bro

ima stop talkin abt this now cuz i feel like cryin nd im not a crybaby

i hate hip pain

i should stfu

my ass jiggle when i walk

me 4 years ago walkin to the kitchen nd shakin rhe whole table in our house cuz my ass so ****ing fat it causes earthquakes

its rlly a problem tho except not so much now cuz i lost weight nd now regainin the lost weight

every time i do the one tiktok dance i learned at like 14yrs old it reminds me of how much weight i carried specifically in my lower half cuz why was i barely movin my legs in the dance nd my shit was jigglin back nd forth up nd down all around

i was thick asl literally damn near all my weight goes to my lower half why whyWHHWHY

im gona cry

goodnight guys…. see you in the morning…..

okay i lied im back i just thought abt it

i was 14yrs old doin tiktok dances nd shit in my room while the house i was stayin in was literally fallin apart

like deadass i couldn’t walk on like half the floor of mt room cuz it was gone nd there was a big ass whole in the ceiling in once again my room i can’t remember how the hole formed tho

i remember chillin in my room one day as its rainin nd next thing yk i hear a pop sound nd im like um okay nd i look back at my phone just chillin then i see the whole roof comin down in my room

i was okay tho i got tf up outta there

lwokey i wonder if the house is all fixed up now

its been 3 years since ive been in it

holy shit i talk too much idc tho might delete ts #later

lowkey wonder how i’ll be as a person now if i wasnt homeless for a year nd a half

i remember on the like first week of me stayin inna hotel a fight happened right outside my room nd cops hadda come

sb got they braids ripped out they was red braids too

i remember seein like 2 or 3 braids just scattered out in the parking lot the next day

is it weird to think that if my sona had a voice he would sound like a lil ass kid specifically like the song foreign by lungskull

then again tho my sona is short hes the same height as me irl which im not gonna expose bc im short asl… however short you think i am i shorter type shit

a midget is typing this

ima scurry away to bed gn