I’m confused. I was bullied a lot in 3rd and 4th grade. So much so that when bullying was even mentioned in 5th grade ( after I moved ) I broke down crying. I remember bits and pieces like David cornering me in the hall and kicking me, or when he gave me a bloody nose, or when Sammy gave me an Indian burn and pressure points. I remover being chased and hiding from my classmates. Only problem is, the memories are blurry and I can’t remember half of the shit that happened, like my mind blocked it out to the point where I can’t bring up the memories but only feel the insecurities. I don’t know what even happened! I Rembrandt being harassed about being fat to the point where I starve myself today, but I don’t remember what was said only the emotions I felt. I remover the feeling of betrayal and learning to never give second chances but I can’t remember how I was betrayed or by who! I don’t Remember the worst stuff like my brain is trying to protect me from something.