as my mother's only afab, i feel guilty being trans, as if im stripping Away that last bit of hope of having a daughter. something she attempted multiple times, four specifically before having me and ended up with only males. she attempted once more and had another boy. she decided to stop there as she was content with one daughter and four boys (her second son deceased) then she married my step father with two sons. so add two to four and thats one daughter and six sons. i feel as though i am stripping away a part of my mother's dreams, i feel as though i am stripping away a part of my grandfathers dreams, who does his best to make me into the perfect princess he never had. my grandmothers dreams who was left with three sons and no daughters.