Well- I am tired, yes- I need to be honest about something I am going through one of my depression phases where I will not take care of myself- while it isnt intentionally- I will end up ****ing myself up for a while Right now i have been forgetting to eat and my body isnt telling me to eat so i forget to eat. I have been snacking- and only very little other than that i havent been eating And when i am reminded the thought of eating just makes me feel sick and i have no motivation to do anything like taking a shower, eating, brushing my teeth, or cleaning mybroom or doing homework because i dont care about myself right now. The only reason i still take showers and brush my teeth and practice keeping my hygiene up is because my mom forces me to by yelling and threatening me. I havent eaten all day other than some crackers and a pop tart And i am just kinda exhausted from so much that has gone on in my personal life. Dont try to get me to eat- I think i will force myself to after I wake up, s

So dont worry*

I will try my hardest to get something in my stomach when i wake up because i love you and dont want you worrying about me on top of everythng else

No- Well kinda I am tired- but the reason i am sleeping is because i am just fed up with a lot and dont feel like being awake for right now- plus- i think the me not eating has been getting me all fatigued and stuff

Im sorry- I told you the truth now, I just felt really bad for doing that

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Okay- I will eat a little bit right now- then adter this i will nap and wake back up to eat some more

There is something else you dont know and i want to tell you, but i dont know how to tell you so I am kinda going to wait because i dont know if i am exactly ready to bring it up right now

No i will eat i promise

It is really hard to get myself to do anything right now- I have decided that i will do it because i dont want you to neglect yourself too

Okay- I understand

The big thing that i have wanted to tell you about is really serious and i just decided to not bring it up because I didnt want to bring up something that is just so disturbing and enraging. I wanted to tell you, but i ddint want you to feel the way you will feel when i tell you what happened

It isnt just you- i didnt tell anyone but my parents and like 2 people not in my immediate family

Okay- well with all that said i am gonna get myself to eat a plate of some chicken nuggets or something then take a nap Uh- Night- I love you And im sorry too

Lol idk what i am supposed to say for just a nap- I am done eating some chicken nuggets lol So now i am off to nap

Dont worry- I had at least about like- 15 chicken nuggets on there and they were decent sized and i made sure to eat them all