I don't feel well The longer I live, the more I want to kill myself. I haven't been eating I've been thinking about using the puking method to lose weight My imagination has been getting worse It's been getting more greusome, I can make myself see things on command like usual but it's all dark and their's always blood shed My friends here have been getting more internet fame hundreds of followers thousands of likes the more art they make, the more people like them I feel small the more art I make, the more people start forgetting about me I'm stuck at thirty followers My art style has been on and off I don't like anything I've been making Music is all that's really helping me stay alive I can't tell any of my family how I feel Or my irl friends how upset I am right now I tell my online friends because they live halfway across the world and if I hurt myself they won't be able to stop me...