Then please please come to me. Im not nearly as good as professional help but I've been through it and I know what it's like. I can help talk you down. I prise I don't hate any of you and I want to see you thrive. You're all my children, I e been on here since 2017 and being able to watch all of you grow (and grow alongside you) has been such a joy and a blessing. But that also means I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anyone here hurt themselves or ended their lives. I might not be able to help SnoweytheIcewing, but I can help you. Please please don't feel alone, I love you and want the best for you. I promise it will get better, and I'm proud of you for making it this far. Just let me shoulder the burden. And if you want to talk more privately, that's fine too! I can give you my discord or I can join a social media platform you're on to message privately.