I just love him so bad it just kills me that he wont be my friend because I dont know how to do friends so I instead just stay near him in hopes that he will one day try to actually talk to me properly ;-;

But he will not because he does not want to talk to somedemon that follows him around all the time and it is creepy to him

I always thought- hey good friends hang around each other a lot so I thought that if I hang around him a lot then that would make us become best friends too- And I feel like it may have worked this time if i had not started loving him that way in the middle of the process...

(Oop)

I did think of talking to people to form friendships- but that never worked in hell why would it work here. I dont like to talk really that much because I am scared to, so that just gave me another excuse to not just use my words