so i had a girlfriend who i loved like a l o t and i still do ;-; and way into our relationship i found out i was poly and so i asked her what she would do if i was poly she said she would cry and i- i got really embarrassed about my sexuality after that and had to hide my feelings towards other people and then she broke up with me aa,, i feel really bad about it ghhhh i wasn't the best s/o i know, and i know it was almost impossible to talk to her for so long but,, i wish i could've done better and im scared she'll move on (seeing as she's not poly) idek how many nights i'd stay up thinking about her- how many nights i still do- grr i miss her i just wanna shoot her with my love gun-

might delete this later- i feel like such a sissy

i always listen to the song she said reminded her of me on repeat- half the time i cry to it gah