my grandpa and grandma still live i hope they wont die like ur :( ;-;

I didn't really get to say goodbye to my grandma. It's sad. Before I was born, she hoped that my dad and mom would have a baby boy that was just like my dad. And I am just exactly like him, just female and she loved me so much. But, she felt bad for me too. She thought that I wasn't having the life I deserved. She thought that I should actually have a playdate, learn at a steady pace without my mom towering over me like the Sears building about to collapse. She thought that I should actually ride bikes and learn martial arts at 13 due to the fact that I actually looked good at 10. And I never got to do any of those before she died. HECK IM SUPPOSED TO BE CHRISTIAN AND IVE NEVER READ THE ENTIRE FRIGGIN BIBLE!! And the saddest part is where I've only seen her 7 times in my life and for 3 years we lived close to each other. My mom hated her after the divorce and I remember my dad saying how she cried because she thought that I may be depressed. And I couldn't do anything sufficiently good for her in my damned