i also don't think i'd really blame any of them if we ever did get into contact again and they decided not to forgive me. i'd be lying if i said i wasn't borderline abusive to some of them.
it tears my heart apart to think of the pain i caused them and i really only wish to make it right. but as a victim of a variety of abuse myself i also understand how hard it is to forgive someone that has treated you like that.
maybe they don't view it that way though. either way i wish all of them only the best.
