He was just so nice, kind, sweet and he listened to everything I had to say.. and he calmed me down so well when ever I got really anxious.. and at the time (even still now though) I had no one like that.. so I guess I just latched on to him since he was the only one there.. but I shouldn’t have, we both knew it was bad but we didn’t care.. And.. it’s like.. idk.. rarely do I ever actually talk to someone.. and actually let them know when I’m sad or angry and all that stuff.. but he was one of the people that I actually let in and talked to.. I told him everything And I used to have a best friend that I used to talk to a lot.. back when I was happy and still living with my mom.. and little brother... I still remember what that felt like. And I just want that feeling back.. and when I talked to him I had a little bit of that feeling.. And now I’m scared to talk to anyone.. because so far everyone I ever let in and took the time to explain everything and became close to them (lmao noMoreR

Room* no more room..

Which was more than just those two.. they are all gone now And I know people come and go.. But i lost everyone all at the same time.. then moved with my shitty stepmom and dad.. (it’s gotten a Lottie better though.. I guess) I just wish I could feel that feeling again and not always feel dizzy and sick and then have to play it off as I’m fine since my dad will get upset if I’m sad And omg don’t even get me started on him.. it’s like he doesn’t care.. I’ll be right in front of him balling my eyes out from how frustrated i am and how hard it’s been.. he just yells at me to slow down, over and over and my stepmom just says I’m having a temper tantrum.. anywayyyyy I’ll quit with the sad stuff xD

A lot better*** wtfff

*one last thing* I’ll tell my dad what I’m feeling so maybe he’ll understand better and he just gets pissy and controlling He’ll stand up all tall with his hands folded on top of each other and he’ll squint his eyes at me like he’s trying to be all big and shit And he always tried to be the bigger person, he always has to give me a big whole speech about random shit thats just common knowledge I’ll stop now though.. I’m getting a really bad headache But also my dad and stepmom aren’t all bad.. but just certain things are just super bad.. likemy stepmom has called me names before.. :/ anyway.. I might take a nap or something idk

Also sorry if something doesn’t make sense xD (assuming anyone would actually take the time to read that.. there’s still so much I didn’t say though :/ )

I do remember it was something I said (here on flipanim) but now that I think back to it, there really wasn’t anything To worry about. And it’s just so silly xD but after that I decided I’m tired of just randomly getting sad and waiting for things to get better.. so instead I ant to start making things better (if that makes any sense..) I always think about things I can’t change and that might not get better.. so now I’m going to start thinking of things I can change to make me happier and instead of saying “I’ll do it tomorrow” or “I want be able to do it” I’m just going to do it.. also I’m going to stop doing the “...” so much xD (or at least I’ll try) It’s just a nervous habit of mine that I’ve had for awhile now, it just feels like it I don’t do it I’m saying something wrong or it’s not clear what I’m trying to say, or it kinda makes me sound unsure so if I do say something wrong it’s not as big of a deal.. (at least in my mind xD) but yeah, that’s about i

It* Also one more thing, I’ll read over what I’m commenting over and over and sometimes I’ll even copy it then refresh the page and paste it just to be sure no one else commented.. it’s so ****ing stupid because by doing this sometimes it makes it harder for the person to read it sense I over worked the comment so much (that probably doesn’t make sense though..)

But then the times I don’t do that I constantly worry about what I said xD (I don’t always do the copy and paste thing though.. just when the animation is new and I’m replying to someone.. it’s still silly though..)