going 2 do work and then come back to this in my free period so p

so real fast i'd like to explain/say a few things: -an apology -clearing some things up/ obligatory gianna being cynical -where you can find me now -maybe why i'm still like jumping back here now and again to ghost around g

not in that order

so first off i'm gonna do the last thing i listed because i'm just like that, the reason you're still seeing me pop up every now and again the big reason:::!! i have friends to take care of i still stalk people that i know are dangerous to them (such as kody) to make sure they're not throwing punches at them. it's not so important that they're throwing punches at me, because i mean i'm not really even here anymore, but that doesn't mean my friends aren't still important to me. does that mean im still seeing everything you're saying about me and essentially calling me insane behind my back, cough cough glitter? yeah.

but, whatever, i'm mostly making this post to apologize. look, i'm sorry for hurting people. kody, glassy, whatever. i'm sorry. most of the time i was angry or upset or just otherwise in a bad state of mind, and i was wrong to act out because of that. i would say that if there's something i could do to make it up i would, but i'm not sure there is.

BUT, does this give you the right to talk about me behind my back, harass me and say i should be ip banned for hurting your feelings? no. if i have no right to talk about you, as your fans and friends have made obvious about a thousand times, you and your friends have no right to talk about me. that's that. and trust me, i know you are. most of the bad things i did in the first place was because, believe it or not, kody made me believe it was okay. the "drawing character killing someone else?" kody did that first with calvin. the apparent "deadnaming" kody gave me calvin's deadname in the first place. harassing people? guess where that came from. am i blaming kody 100% for what i did? definitely not, those were my actions that i took, and it's my fault that i did it. but kody planted that seed and nobody could handle what it grew into, apparently.

it's not even me he's done shit to, he owes many people an apology. for example, pathetic-owl. he insulted him here and there, AND he repeatedly misgendered and harassed his boyfriend, stickworld/smiccy. you said once you would apologize to cloud but hey, guess what? you never have. you never apologized to stickworld to my knowledge either.

i've also been noticing you're driving all of your friends down the same path you're going, or at least as you would claim, the path you used to take. all of them are either becoming or already are toxic. remember when glitter was cool but then they started making hate posts on people over the tiniest things sounds like both of us doesn't it hrrrmrnmrnr and now she's saying shit like "no one is quite like her inside,, no one can match that girl's dark mind" as if this is an anime. it's just being an asshole, not insanity a,..,.,and yet anytime i say anything about you i get shunned but when this happens it's ok .,.,..,.,

ghurghurghurghur anyways moral of the story ssshut the **** up you said that it's bad that i talk about you behind your back but then all you do is do it to me when you think i'm gone but then it's okay when you do it apparently because you're famous somehow

eeg now im mad look im sorry i was shitty but you're not helping anything by also being shitty. and every time you make a post about me behind my back you kinda make everything.,.,. worse HEEG HEEG SOUNDS FAMILIAR WE SWITCHED PERSONALITIES...,.,,. except everyone still hates me

ok back to serious thing all you've done since i left is just prove i made the right choice by leaving and throw salt on the wound. as in nobody that wasn't brainwashed to like you already should have at least thought "oh,.,. wait no don't do that" when you celebrated about me leaving. because if this was anyone else in any other situation, someone would have said something, but this time around everyone is terrified of you and won't speak up out of fear of getting Canceled, Babe!!

i assure you that many, many other people have approached me saying that they're scared to speak up about you because they're scared that they'll end up being bullied by you. and as i mentioned before i've even had some of your friends say so in the past. if you want my personal opinion? take a break for a bit. if you can't tell being on this website and yelling at people like you're me on spaceguts doesn't help and you're just screwing yourself over for later. i'm not here anymore, what's the point in excuses for not taking a break like just.,.,. get help or something. i can't. that's what got me here. i don't give two shits about what happens to you or your friends but i have friends that i do care about and i'd rather they not be your next victims. go tell someone about your past. doesn't matter how far back it is. just tell them about it. because trust me, i can tell that you still have roots from all the way back then.

i think there's a pretty big problem if people are afraid to say anything about you. i think it's a big problem if people are afraid to say anything about me, and i don't understand why you don't see that as an issue. because let me let you in on a little secret:: that's a one way ticket into letting people hate you and hating your guts and getting you into my position

im rambling now i mainly made this post just to get things off my chest. this stuff has been following me around forever, because even if i do try to say something it's just knocked back down by everyone around me and then i'm yelled at. there's a lot more i could say but i feel like it's just pure rage, i'm sure there were some mistakes in here that i made because i was angry but i don't know what you expect i've had some of these grudges for over a year and i haven't been able to say anything

glassy, staarchip, whatever whatever anyone i even have a slight chance of being friends with again, don't get the wrong idea but i don't want to be friends again and thank the stars if you feel the same way. because if you know me, you know ill freak out at the slightest thing over this

i forgot where i was going with this but um parmesan doritos. bye