Im going to take responsability for my actions instead of completely blaming the fact i was 13(?)-16(?) because despite my awful mental health and self image i could have ****ing been better.

[Spoken] Uh, hi, everyone I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't type :3 what I wanna say, so Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen Here we go Many years ago, I used to have followers white knight me, i didnt even ask them to it was like a genuine cult. Sometimes id tell people to stop but most of the times, more often than not, i didnt. Not in a “i am neurodivergent and a minor” kinda of way It was more of a i was ****ing awful online/ an awful person online kind of way Where I was just trying to bully everybody. (genuinely awful and horrible of me.) Okay this part i dont even know what to write like why did she add this???? It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know? And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you

"Hey, girl, what's the tea?" And you're like, "Eh" Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird ANYWAY. I've ****ing traumadumped to you, and because of that I feel Like I'm talking to my “friends” (most of you have no genuine idea of who i am.), but, in the beginning of my time on this site I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there There were times on flipanim when I would overshare Details of my life, which was really weird of me

I haven't done that for for a year, only to people who know me ****ing personally because im not. dumb like that anymore. (im so sorry) Because I changed my behavior, and I NOW took accountability [Chorus] So, let's go on the toxic gossip train The locomotive's fueled with my horrible internet footprint The toxic gossip train Steamroll over i cant think of anything here but ive done so much shit i dont blame you at all if you hold me accountable for anything ive done Toxic gossip train Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize That the train is made of ****ing facts that happened in the past. There was more here but what she wrote was actually weird so i removed it [Spoken] In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes.

I used to bully people to make myself feel better. I was the genuine definition OF a bully. I was in such a low place and had little to no genuine therapy nor healthy coping skills, i was upset everyone around me seemed happy with their lives and i was going through shit. That does not make it okay in the SLIGHTEST because those people probably also had it rough. [Verse 2] you should make me take accountability You should hold people ****ing accountable Your goal is to help the person you despise become better (but at the same time it’s their choice and they need to LEARN from THEIR PAST ACTIONS that what they did IT NOT SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE.) Okay the rest of what she wrote was just. Awful to read.

------ Okay funny bit over,, I really wasn’t the best on here. I’m actually sorry and I am genuinely coming from the heart, I’ve made various apologies (you can find if curious). There’s so much I’ve done where I don’t know where to start. I cant even begin to apologies to everyone personally because of how many people there were. I remember a few big ones, but i dont even know if the users are on here anymore, and i dont think i have enough courage to even reach out. You don’t have to like me and you CAN unfollow. (Gonna be real, i dont have 3,000(?)+ followers, half of them were friends and i’s troll accounts, or other various troll/nonserious accounts. But either way, i still had an impact on the site and its users and im sorry.

i wanted to make it lighthearted while also addressing touchy subjects, just because the drawing and theme is joke-y i do recognise what ive done and did was genuinely afwul. (sorry, i say genuinely a lot) i still wish i was vetter on here for my time being, but i really, /really/ wasnt. even if i was only 13-16 when this shit happened, i was still old enough to realise right from wrong. also sorry for any misspellings, nervous

There's no way i can fix any damage but i do feel this is better than just leaving and not saying anything, other users have done that (iykyk?) but i still feel bad idk if that'll go away, even if ill probably never see any of you guys offline, doesnt mean i dont feel bad

i appreciate the comment /gen, but i dont want it to be swept under the rug just because its done and over people can forgive, but do NOT forget.

nono its ok!! it means a lot, truley! but i still feel guilt, and that wont go away

for some reason i doubt it (/lh) idk how to explain

sorry but i dont beleive i should be forgiven so easily? if that makes sense people need PROVE that theyve redeemed themself for ANY forgiveness, but i dont know if i want to spend time on here to do that stuff, this place is dying and its no longer.. what it used to be? but i have grown, i do see it, but that doesnt mean im going to sweep everything under the rug.

it's completely fine, i really appreciate this comment because you were there and you saw how i acted, im glad you recognised that ive grown, but sorry idk idk if this makes sense im getting tired, this just means a lot thank you

might ghost or change my pfp from time to time of old art

zero idea of ur stance on me cus one min ur chill n the next ur rlly mean so idk :grin:

sorry let me rephrase one second ur super fun to talk to and stuff, then randomly u treat me like a stranger and/or just act dull towards me

gijjles

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@zee-rex u seein' this shit?!!

what caused you to say this.

the devil himself could never make me admit to the shit you willingly say.

STOP UR INTERNWET FROOOT PRIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

get control of grant NOW

https://ibb.co/hRV7P46

hunger games i wanna win i win it all i wanna win all day

- Ive had enough with this website I'm sick of everything about it, and everything that's happened with the trolling/drama/fake people/etc. So I'll give you all this little warning message. I'm gonna figure out how to kill this god forsaken website, and when I do, I wont show a bit of remorse. To the artists who aren't any form of assholes, trolls, or fakes. I'm sorry your being screwed over in this situation, but theres genuinely no moderation here and quite frankly, I'm ****ing sick of it. To the rest of you who dont fit into the category above, I'm coming for you. Just. ****ing. Wait.

also leabe him alone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ill make him get on with the account i gave him 5 billoin years ago

leon

flipanim highschool au

There were a lot. Some were in private where I reached out personally so I would not make a huge deal on a small site, others were on-site but in old posts Some apologies were said in private anims, discord dms, and insta dms. This was vauge because there was no name for me to say specifically, not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't know who to name. I know who have accepted apologies, and I know there are some people who have accepted it and turned around to say they don't accept it, anyone can take back accepting apologies and that's okay! I do not expect every apology said to be forgiven.

I could grab old posts where I have named people in apologies, but I don't know if that's relevant or necessary unless the other party needs to see it. I will not drag in old apologies to other people to help my case with talking to one person. I'd feel wrong using that as examples because that would be me saying: "look! i did apologise!! i am a good person!!" instead of being genuine. This, although written months ago and I haven't re-read it yet, I thought I atleast acknowledged what I've done was shitty. I do feel bad, I have changed, and I will continue to improve. There are people I think about daily and others who also have done things that have affected me. That's not for me to share with a stranger but I am talking to profesionals. I was 12-16, I am 19 now, I used to be unmedicated and I was in a horribly abusive home, my escape was here and that was horrible. I wish I was better to those around me, and if I did do something to you personally, would it be alright to remind or tell me-

-not forcing of course, but to apologise. properly. <:]

had to put the "-" because of message limitations, sorry