This doesn't cover anything, and I'm sure most of you will not forgive me. That's okay, I don't expect you to, as stated. But I am deeply sorry for the people I hurt and I hope that I can give some sense of closure for my victims and that this doesn't come off as sarcastic, ego-driven, or anything like that. This is not for my own benefit, as I will always feel sorry for the people I hurt and the damage I caused, but for anyone who reads this, feels seen, and justified knowing I changed, and that I have remorse and sense enough in my adult years to say sorry. If anyone I personally affected reads this, and wants a more personal apology, please, let me know and I will, whatever it takes. Thank you for reading this if anyone does. -Mason

I am an adult now, living on my own, and not the incredibly scarred, unwell, and horrible person I had become in my teens. Again, I'm not excusing my behavior (it was abhorrent and disgusting), but I am telling you WHY it was like that. I did not purposely seek out these people (young people, I might add. My emotional abuse certainly was predatory in terms of manipulation) to hurt them. It happened on accident because I was too arrogant and immature and sick to realize what I was doing.

For anyone unaware, I was in an abusive relationship with someone who isn't really a user on here but, has an account, from 2020 to 2023. I am obviously no longer in this abusive relationship but I recognize that while I had done terrible horrible things before I met them, the things I did with them were just as bad. I am not calling them out, I am apologizing for the way MY behavior has affected other people throughout my life, and I've spent a long time the past year apologizing and undoing my past mistakes. I don't expect or even want any of you to forgive me, I just want to apologize because I believe it's the right thing to do for everyone I've hurt, ever. And, I do in fact have proof my previous relationship mentioned was abusive if anyone asks because I no longer make accusations without proof. I do know for a FACT that my behavior was unacceptable and abusive towards others and being abused excuses None of It.

This isn't a callout post either, I'm not here to name names or point fingers, I'm only pointing them at myself. So a list of things I can remember I did (my memory is very poor now and I'm sorry for that too) would include my repeated whining, emotional abuse and gaslighting, threatening and faking suicide, freakouts, victim blaming, public harassment, and allowing my abuser to influence me and my actions on other people.

Secondly, there are a LOT of people on this website I hurt very deeply. It's not an excuse, but I was (and. Still am) EXTREMELY mentally unwell and ill, and my actions were entirely my fault, as well as all the victim blaming I did and gaslighting, bullying, harassment, etc. I believed I was in the right bc I was unwell, but I'm apologizing now bc I am older and better than I was and I won't let anyone keep going thinking that I continue to inflict my harm unto others.