did this actually happen??? ;-;

oh how lovely

God i js want do get magical powers to change reality and make it all peerfect

I'm never gonna be the best at anything. always js second. and i hate it.what do u mean life will only get worse??? I don't like how selfish i am for thinking thios whilst growing up so privaliged. my parents aren't divorced, i'm not abused, but thanks to media--which i',m still addicted to, i'm, and i don't wanna self-diagnose, but i feel like i'm hypers3xu@l, and slightly d3pressed and have high anxiety. I don't like pain, but death sounds comforting

I js found out one of by best friends hates me. But she still acts so nice. I've already noticed the distance between us but i thought it was js up growing apart. But i think its bc of her new "friend" who she's gotten closer to. Last year, she talking total shit abt her, but not they're like 2 peas in a pod. I ****ing hate my life atp. I wanna kms. I dunno if anyone likes me, but i've overthinked it so much i'm js numb.