my mom called me an ungrateful piece of shit be I have concerts I need to go that are grades I might as well not be in band in high school since she hates my concerts that much

My mom took my phone bc I didn’t wanna sit by her at church.. I hate church.. I don’t believe in god or Jesus I to,d her that after and I just wanna live with my uncle.. or my grandma.. I I messed everything up I started c*tting again what a waste of those 3 months . My mom doesn’t even want to take me to concerts THAT ARE GRADES and she’s so concerned for me to pass well I need to attend those concerts to keep my band grade up

-I have left..

Wait you get to stay home-

Also denying me food because “my grades don’t look like it” is flat out ****ed up I was hungry and we were at his softball games for probably more than 5 hours AND TELLING ME I CANT BE WITH MY FAMILY BECAUSE IM FAILING IS JUST ****ED UP TOO