My art is so much better on ibis I’ve made so much improvement

I hope if my old friends ever come back here and think of me, they’ll get into regular contact with me again I’m doing my best to draw as often as I possibly can, and I’m trying to keep up the good streak with my life right now lol I changed my usernames on all platforms again You wouldn’t believe what I changed it too lmao 🙄 Melancholy_Teaa Gah Anyway if by some lucky chance someone is reading this Thank you

Flipanim has always been a weird sorta safe space for me, even when I’d get made fun of for venting all the time, or when I learned that some people didn’t like me because of it I still had those people around who’d spend time with me when no one else would I spent all day here when I was younger and now I only come once every few months That’s something I never would’ve seen I’m still really thankful to whoever created flipanim though, I did feel seen My art felt seen, the things I was into and the things I wanted to share, it was a pretty nice place when you weren’t actively seeking drama lol Im scared to admit this, because a lot of genuinely messed up shit happened here But had I not found the people who’ve carried my art and loved it, almost 1000 people who liked what I drew I would’ve quit art or I think I actually would’ve gone through with ending my life when I was younger Even though absolutely repulsive things happened here, I’m still so grateful for flipanim

I’ll never live in filth again, a room with fruit flies and their maggots growing on the food plates left out from weeks prior, going two to three weeks without showering or wearing dirty clothes just because I didn’t want to wash them. I’m content with the way I take care of myself now because it’s better than it was two years ago. My sweet boyfriend has taken such good care of me, we just reached a whole year and I’ve decided he’s the man I want to marry. Even now I know that even though I’m so stressed about all this stuff piling up. I have things to look forward to again. I remember a time when everything looked blacked out for me, and I was crashing out every other day because I never knew what to do. But now it’s back, my future is back and even though it’s nothing like I dreamed it’s there. I can work out the kinks along the way. He’s my goal so I just can’t let myself get hopeless

My brain is so foggy nowadays, I can’t feel anything but exhaustion, anxiety and fear. I cringed at my old vents for a while a couple weeks ago but I never stopped to realize that younger me felt just as helpless. Since no one at home or at school was taking her stress seriously, and that her only place to turn to was the internet. To people she assumed were her friends. I’m very careful about my friends now, I only have one real good friend. I’d do anything for him because he’s stuck with me throughout this entire thing, flipanim to now. I was too young to grasp the concept that strangers on the internet can’t help you. I was so hell bent on getting someone to “save me” just like in all the anime and shows that I watched I never tried it myself I’ve been taking much better care of myself now though, I take frequent showers and eat at least twice a day, I maintain a clean room where I keep my floor clear and walkable and clean my laundry at least once a week