if anyone wants to talk about this i find the subject interesting, and maybe that sounds really dumb and edgy, but its true, i think existence and the morality of it is very interesting to think and talk about it. id like to hear other perspectives too because i could try to maybe understand a little why people like to be alive and think it is worth it to be here. i am doing well and this post is not a cry for help but rather an opinion on myself.

maybe it would be nice to understand and feel a will to live. i tried a lot of times to be able to feel that way but it never worked. i hope this post doesn't upset anyone because its my true feelings on the matter. again, i am not encouraging suicide or this kind of mindset. this is just how i feel about myself and i wanted to talk about it because ive never told anyone before. thank you for reading and have a good day, take care ^^

i just think that personally, there is no way for me to make a difference in this world. ive felt this way for a long time but i didnt tell anyone because i thought maybe things would get better like everyone said but they havent. so i wanted to share my opinion with all of you. i dont know when or if i will attempt again, but it might happen, and i dont want people to feel upset about it. im okay the way i am and i really dont mind at all. i hope other people have a more positive outlook than me, because everyone is much stronger than i am, and this is a personal belief. i hope everyone has good lives and makes it far in them. this just my opinion on myself and i dont encourage anyone to start putting themself in the same mindset i am in. the whole reason i posted this is because i feel like ive been lying my whole life, but really i dont feel anything at the end of the day, so i dont really care too much. i dont mind being this way.

just being alive costs money. that money goes to corrupt and horrible people. they stay in power because we are alive. sure, theres been revolutions, but think, really, how many people had to die for it? and where are we today? it is all the same. history literally repeats itself. there is no possible way for this world to function with us humans in it. its never going to get better because no matter hard we try, we will be silence, killed, and not taken seriously. why would i want to live in a world where nothing will ever get better? i dont! and i would be gone by now but there are still people who care about me and i dont want to put that burden on them. yes, i am mentally ill, i know i am, but i firmly believe what im saying right now. i know the comments under this post are going to be filled with jokes and saying that i am "edgy" or something, but i dont really care. its strange that nobody else thinks the same way i do. this is not encouraging suicide,

hey guys i probably look like a psych ward patient from what im about to say but i believe it fully! i wouldnt read this if youre really depressed because this is a super negative post (at least most people would think so) but i sort of just have no feelings towards it. suicide and stuff mentioned BTW life is not worth living, not for me. my first attempt was a long while ago and i failed obviously. everyone is so caught up on trying to fix me and help me but i don't need it at all. all i need is to leave this earth. and woah! that probably sounds super bad! but honestly i dont understand. i dont see why it is bad that i dont want to live anymore. the only reason im still here is because of the people who care about me which i also don't understand because i have tried many times to push everyone away and make others hate me so i can be alone and be able to die in peace. i want to say im grateful for my friends, and i truly am, it makes my shitty life fun sometimes, but its just not worth it. let me explain