I just hope everything goes well when the testing shit happens if something goes wrong and it has to be delayed more than it already has I'll genuinely freak out and in a really bad way this isn't fun man

Anyways yeah this sucks it's genuinely so hard not to resort to suicide because of this it's not a solution and won't make me feel any better I need to push through this until November or December when I can see my psychiatrist and tell him about it

Um I was gonna say something else but AYDIN ****ing distracted me and i forgot

DIEEE

You're sick in the head