ok yeah i think theres more to me and my mental illness than i thought. why is it actually impossible to just talk the way i do on my posts on here. hello ? i feel like i am totally different on here than i am in fromt of people who know me a specific way. ****k this baka life of mine. i need to be entertaining or i Die

i need to stop talking i should just like . shut. up or something. and not. feed into my weird venting habit on this site. i just really dont have anywhere to. go to feel. normal

i just miss like ha.ving friends. i mean. i have a lot of friends okay i guess ? and im greatful ..? but its not. its not in the way i want and. i don’t think im . treated. very well. either. its nobodies business to like coddle me or whatever but like anything would be nice…? i dont know …? like. friend things…? ugh what the hell is wrong with me maybe i am having an episode i just cant remember the last time someone checked up to see if i was Okay

man i don’t really feel safe anywhere anymore. everything i touch literally hurts me in some Way. i don’t have any safe places left where i can just feel good. ts all demolished!

pleased that. i am a Bestie. i actually don’t know you. umm thanks ? sorry im not in the mood but i also don’t want to be mean to a stranger . hi