I Really want to life would be so much fun but I cant there are things that stop me every day...my dad's approval, money I'm poor as hell and the total fear of doing anything different I want to so bad but I just cant every single day uuuuhhhhggggg

At least this Friday I get to go on a small vacay and see my grandparents and go caveing, see a fire work show,and idk a check out a couple of museums

its oki

my life is boring as hell Im respectful,nice, and do as I'm told every single day but sometimes I want just do crazy shit like Im almost 19 I have never: whent over the speed limit smoked cigarettes drank alcohol smoked weed kissed anyone(crazy right) (18+) tried to sneak into a bar or club I don't even drink anything with caffeine I don't do drugs I haven't quit my job even tho almost everyday is hell Shit I never even been invited to a Damb party.... there are kids 15 years old in my town pregnant and smoking out vapes and shit I'm not saying I want to be them but damn nothing happens in my life all I have is my online presence and the worst I do here is curse..... sorry for the rant,,, I'm board out of my mind and I'm not very creative rn

I'm working my brain to the bone